Love carried the cross that was meant for me

I am so grateful for your love, Lord. It brings me to tears, your love and mercy is wonderful. You sustain me through trials and tribulations. Lord! I desperately need You! Continue to break me Father and build me back up with Your love Lord. I'm feeling overwhelmed...I realized that I was just ignoring many things because I just don't want to deal with them Lord. Today it just all hit me. I don't know what to do. I am so frustrated Lord.

You are my refuge, my comforter, my shelter. I seek You Father. I pray that my relationship is not based on my emotions but on your word... i always seem to want to isolate myself during times like this, but you always remind of Prov 18:1- A man who isolates himself seeks his own desire; He rages against all wise judgment....Lord, I'm tired...

I need to be in community/fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ........
PSalm 119:37- Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in Your way.


Thank you for paying my price. I am yours.

Last week of radiation !!! woo hoo!!

Starting this Monday will be my last week of radiation. =). I'm soooo happy!! These past few weeks weren't as hard as I thought would've been. I think the first week was the hardest because I just had to get used to the change, but after that I didn't experience much side effects (thank God). I just felt a lot more tired than usual, other than that God has definitely been teaching me a lot and showing me what he wants me to do in the future. I'm happy and excited ! =D

Blu Like Yazz...

...as my mama would say. Also known as "Blue Like Jazz". If you have no idea what I'm talking about you need to pick up this book because it is amazing!

Day 2 of Radiation

5 am, early, dark, rainy, windy, excited, nervous, anxious, indifferent, sad, frustrated, tears, sobs, comfort, calm, angry, apologetic, relaxed, cold, really really cold, soo sleepy, really wet, indifferent....not looking forward to biking to work.

my day started out a little rough today and its only 10 am sigh ....hopefully the rain will stop soon.

Day 1 of radiation...

...wasn't too bad. It took like 15 min for the whole procedure. The travel time was what got me. i was dumb and forgot to print out my readings so i wasted like 2 hours of potential study time =(. The good news is that I won't have to miss class tomorrow since they changed my appointment time to 7am instead of 8am from now on. That means rise and shine extra extra early for me for the next 6 weeks. Oh well.

im hungry.