A Man's Life...

Man, God's creation
full of emotion that rages
Can we control it?
I finally see, my eyes have opened
I see a child lost somewhere looking for guidance, he's looking for love
I see a child looking for someone to talk to.
I see a boy searching for manhood and finding his way alone
I see a boy living on his own and making mistakes
I see this man, this father, brother, uncle continuing to make the same mistakes
he desperately tries to succeed on his own strength.
He forgets about God and searches for approval of men on earth.
He is hurt and cries to God, but gets no immediate response.
He questions God, "Why me?!!" he asks
He is filled with frustration and resentment at his failures
I see a man living on his own strength making mistakes
My question is, why does he not learn from them?
Why does he continue to make the same mistakes?
Why does he not choose to repent, learn, and overcome?!
What is holding him back?
A feeling of guilt maybe, of the ones he left?
A feeling of insecurities maybe?
A cover up maybe, to try and show his "manliness."
But deep down is a scared little boy,
still searching for someone to just love him.
Still searching for someone to encourage him
Still searching to find strength to love himself.
Only then will he be a man and love others.